What We HadWhat We HadI think it was the lack of connection.The lack of... touch?I didn't mean for it to happen.My desire for love was too much.He was right there,In my peripheral vision.The party was intense. Nothing but flashing white lightsFilling the room.He walked up to me,Wanting to dance and I saidYes.I was with someone.It's not like it was aRelationship. We only ever kissed and saidSweet things.A whole year of justKissing.AndTalking.Maybe he didn't love meLike I loved him.Maybe he was straight.Maybe he didn't think of menLike thatAnymore.I still loved him.I didn't want to let him go.But